god protected my baby and my sanity

Yesterday I was inside getting dinner started and the kids were playing on the deck, just outside the kitchen window. My husband had called from Boston and we were chatting about his classes at MIT.

Then I heard screams. Not unusual – my kids are pretty loud. But this scream sounded different – so I ran outside.

Colin's little face was peeking up from the retaining wall. He was holding himself up, HANGING ON FOR DEAR LIFE on the retaining wall on the side of our driveway (we live on a hill).

First, can I just say how impressed  I was that he managed to catch himself and hang on?

Second, THANK YOU JESUS that he was able to catch himself and hang on, or he would have fallen 5 feet down, on the wood pile, which is surrounded by rocks, and probably rolled down the hill.

I cuddled him, cleaned up his scraped legs and have not been able to stop thinking about it.

I'm completely overwhelmed.

How can I do this? I know I can't watch and be with them every single second of the day. But things  happen. And they happen quickly. One glance they were right outside the window, playing with toy animals on the deck and the next minute…  Lord, HOW can I do this? I don't think I can handle this job!

Then I remembered: I'm not doing this alone. And I'm not supposed to be doing this alone.

"I lift up my eyes to the hills—
       where does my help come from?
My help comes from the LORD,
       the Maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot slip—
       he who watches over you will not slumber;
indeed, he who watches over Israel
       will neither slumber nor sleep.
The LORD watches over you—
       the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
the sun will not harm you by day,
       nor the moon by night.
The LORD will keep you from all harm—
       he will watch over your life;
the LORD will watch over your coming and going
       both now and forevermore."  Psalm 121

Lord, thank you. Thank you for watching over my babies – thank you that they are never out of your sight. Thank you for the many, many countless times they have been kept from serious harm. Continue to watch over them – especially when I cannot. Thank you, Lord, that we are not alone and we have a heavenly father watching over us always.