I began this blog as a way to keep in touch with family and friends. Its become a journal of sorts, chronicling our daily adventures of life with three small kids. And my quest for honesty and transparency leads to posts like this one when I joke (sort of) about selling my kids or this one where I'm simply overwhelmed. This blog is filled with posts about my frustrations, struggles and mistakes I make daily as I navigate motherhood. Just yesterday I shared about bursting into tears in public after a particularly exhausting day. Nice.
But last night, I'm sitting in the rocking chair in the dim light of the nightlight with my baby boy in my lap. He's sucking his finger on his right hand and holding with my hand left, lacing his tiny fingers through mine. I'm rocking gently and singing him lullabies. I bend my head and place a kiss on his head, breathing in his freshly-bathed, baby shampoo scent. He snuggles closer to me and looks up. He smiles, places his hand on my cheek and softly sighs, "Mama."
I gaze into his eyes. I can hear the soft voices of his sisters playing in the next room and see my husband sitting in the living room reading. And I can hardly breathe. My heart is so full. I'm overwhelmed.
And I'm reminded that its worth it. All of it. Totally worth it.
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I totally feel ya on this one. The last few weeks have been up and downs, but at the end of the day, all I can do is thank God for my family. I wake up and I have forgotten about the bad things because those bad moments don’t even compare to the good ones.
You got me to say, “awwww…” out loud. A full heart is a good thing.
I’ve had alot of ups and downs the past few months but when Aubryn snuggles in with me on the glider in her bedroom, I am reminded of what is really important. She loves me unconditionally even though I, at times, feel like the worst mommy in the world.
I often refer to my life as a roller coaster but I don’t think I’d have it any other way. Have you seen Parenthood the movie? I love the story Grandma tells life is like a roller coaster goes up, down, makes you dizzy vs. the carousel which just goes round and round.
I can completely relate to this post. The days that all you want to do is cry or wonder how you ended up with a kid, husband, chores, and responsibilities you all of sudden don’t feel you want anymore, that baby of yours finally says “I love you” in his little baby banguage and that husband that irks you to know end FINALLY does something right.
Those ARE the moments that make it all worth it.
So true. Parenting is crazy, but it’s a wonderful kind of crazy. I wouldn’t trade this precious pandemonium for anything.
I’m pretty sure god gives us these moments so we don’t go insane. I try to store mine up in my mind for the rough days. thanks for this sweet post.
I love those moments. So totally worth it!
It’s the little things that put you over the edge and the even littler ones that bring you back.
Thanks for sharing that special moment. I’m entering the parenting stage of stinky armpits and puberty. It’s nice to be reminded of those sweet memories.
I still have equally special time with my teenager and my tweens. They just don’t smell as good
That is so true. It takes one moment to bring it all back, even after the worst of days.
LOVE this post.