what a grump!

Seriously, what is wrong with this girl? She is being such a grump and is driving me crazy! Everything annoys her and she is being such a brat! And by ‘her’ I mean me.
I am incredibly grumpy today and cannot for the life of me figure out why. Its not “that time of the month.” I got fairly good sleep last night. I’m not sick. I’m just… grumpy.
My poor kids. They have faced my wrath all day – they keep being thrown in time-out because I needed them to get away from me so I can swear under my breath… grumble in peace… calm myself down. (Seriously, I NEVer swear, and I have caught myself twice this morning.)
To be fair, they have been arguing over everything all day. Including what color they are going to dye their Easter eggs: “I’m having pink eggs.” “Well, I’m having blue eggs!” “Pink!” “Blue!” “MOOOOMMMMMMMM!!!!” Me: “Why are you arguing about something so stupid? Go watch TV and, for pete’s sake, be quiet for two minutes.” (Stellar parenting tactic, right there. You may want to write that one down.)
Then I spent half an hour putting together the easel Ellie got for her birthday. And I clearly said, “Don’t touch until Mommy comes back.” I came back two minutes later to find Ellie drawing on the white board with non-white board markers while Gracie drew on the chalk board side with markers. That was such a big time-out. For me as well. It took a piece of chocolate to help me get over that one. Tequila might have done a better job, but it was 10am.
Anywho, I decided to lay down during the girls’ naps and immediately fell sound asleep for over an hour, so maybe I’m just tired. Maybe I have cabin fever, since my van in getting its state inspection today, I am without wheels. Maybe it has to do with Husband’s phone call at 9am telling me this little inspection was going to cost over $400. Cause its not like we’re going to Disneyland next week or need money for anything. I hate cars.

Alright. I need to shake this off, snap out of it and walk worthy. The words of 1 Corinthians 13, which has been coming up in all sorts of sermons and Bible Studies lately, perhaps because God is trying to remind me of something. Let me just bold all the things that I am doing particularly poorly at today to remind myself how I should be loving my children.
Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 ESV

Okay. Here goes.

Update: Doing better Husband said to get take-out for dinner, kids are in bed and he just delivered me a large glass of red wine to drink while I blog and watch Friends.