epiphany

I have been trying to diet off and on this year. And I swear I have been gaining and losing the same 5 pounds all year.  So I started thinking about it. Its just 5 pounds, after all. And there have been days when I’ve gained or lost them in a single day. (Seriously. My scale is whack.) I also realized that how I feel (fat or skinny) was pretty unrelated to those 5 pounds. What does make me feel fat or skinny is whether or not I’m working out or slacking off. That’s the difference for me. So that means:
Pro: I can stop obsessing about food. Within reason, naturally. This is good, since I’m a horrible dieter. I love to cook, I love to eat and when I try to eat less I don’t feel very good. I think I’m hypoglycemic. Plus, I normally eat pretty healthy, if you don’t count M&Ms.
Con: I have to exercise.*

So I’m going to try eating normally and just work out more and see what happens. Its worked so far. I’m at the bottom of my 5-pound-range, have worked out 4 times and I’m feeling pretty good about the ol’ bod. Plus I’m enjoying eating without obsessing. (Much. I’m always obsessing slightly. But, hey – that’s me.)

*I can hear DCRmom’s shudder from here. No! Not exercise! Gah!